Unbearable Pain: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a gloomy weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp sensation bloomed behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, like electric shocks. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with worksheets and hurried to the school bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The attacks appeared frequently that autumn, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In late 2019, a GP eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

Cluster headaches typically begin with severe discomfort around a single eye that lasts up to three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently affected. Cluster headaches typically begin with abrupt, excruciating agony around one eye that peaks within minutes and continues for up to three hours. Episodes come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which arrives in periodic bouts; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What connects patients is the severity. One study rated the pain at 9.7 out of 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes began when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Drinking in her teens, like several triggers, made things worse. After having alcohol at her graduation party, she recalls barely being able to see on the transport home.

Her family often mistook her episodes as intoxicated behavior. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her illness. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her definitive diagnosis came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.


Headaches have been described throughout the ages. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in 4000BC,” write experts in a book on the subject. They linked the disease to an evil spirit who afflicted his sufferers' heads.

Historical medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what some observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with treatments ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by international headache committees in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the late 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the brain. Leading specialists in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In the late 1990s, scientists published the results of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and observed the episodes in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they recovered.

In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. Jamie Charteris's symptoms began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had multiple surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a doctor looked up his complaints.

Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other primary head pain disorders, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed history is crucial: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain features such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for most of her life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes the dental profession still need greater awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a calm volunteer guided me through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode eased.

Official guidance on treatment recommend that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug delivered by injection. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the bouts of well-known people.

But consultant specialists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is critical: “The duration of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent attacks are handled with acute therapy only. More prolonged or more severe bouts require preventives such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.

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Shannon Richmond
Shannon Richmond

A tech strategist with over a decade in digital innovation, specializing in AI integration and sustainable tech solutions.